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I usually have a system that helps me cope with the everyday endurance with my disease.
I write in a notebook every days date, and write a number between
1 thru 10.
These numbers symbolize the intensity of pain I receive everyday. Although few, whenever I feel depressed about my disease, I look & pay attention to my 1's. These little numbers mean the absolute world to me.
I know it seems kind of silly, how can a number on a paper actually make you feel better?
I felt the same, but for some reason, just knowing that there's a possibility that maybe tomorrow will be better than today, gives me hope.
The numbers are pretty simple. 1 thru 3 mean, though I have the inability to leave my home I am able enough to make food for myself, feel comfortable with picking things up around my home & maybe even going out to the store with a family member and only ever at night.
However, 4 thru 7 is a completely different world. My pain is not contained to just moderate discomfort around the house when I try to complete everyday tasks.
These days, I stay in my room & only able to ask for my parents to help me with almost everything.
The dreadful 8 thru 10 numbers, It’s effects no longer confined to overexertion, but inescapably spread to other tasks such as (but not limited to) walking, taking a warm shower, lifting anything, the feelings of stress or becoming anxious, if I am in a car or room that may be too warm even whilst sleeping, or if I happen to trip. Almost everything I do is now affected, rendering whatever I am trying to do, physically impossible.
I write in a notebook every days date, and write a number between
1 thru 10.
These numbers symbolize the intensity of pain I receive everyday. Although few, whenever I feel depressed about my disease, I look & pay attention to my 1's. These little numbers mean the absolute world to me.
I know it seems kind of silly, how can a number on a paper actually make you feel better?
I felt the same, but for some reason, just knowing that there's a possibility that maybe tomorrow will be better than today, gives me hope.
The numbers are pretty simple. 1 thru 3 mean, though I have the inability to leave my home I am able enough to make food for myself, feel comfortable with picking things up around my home & maybe even going out to the store with a family member and only ever at night.
However, 4 thru 7 is a completely different world. My pain is not contained to just moderate discomfort around the house when I try to complete everyday tasks.
These days, I stay in my room & only able to ask for my parents to help me with almost everything.
The dreadful 8 thru 10 numbers, It’s effects no longer confined to overexertion, but inescapably spread to other tasks such as (but not limited to) walking, taking a warm shower, lifting anything, the feelings of stress or becoming anxious, if I am in a car or room that may be too warm even whilst sleeping, or if I happen to trip. Almost everything I do is now affected, rendering whatever I am trying to do, physically impossible.